Just my thoughts...

Just my thoughts...
The randomness that is I

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Day 27~ Does anyone you've broken up with still love and pursue you?

Short and sweet answer? Like The God'ess said, love? I doubt it. Still pursue? Heck yeah. A couple. That's all the energy they get today.


I want to gripe about loyalty. The people I hold near to me I expect certain things from and when they disappoint me, I take it HARD.

When I've been everything I can to a person and when it comes time to return the favor (and I admittedly can be a piece of work), I expect them at the very least to respect my feelings, so when someone crosses that, it's very hard for me not to become bitter and it, for some reason, is harder for me to let it or them go. (yes, damn the grammar and punctuation)

I tend to give people chances upon chances. It's my nature. BUT, when I've reached the point that I feel it's time to let go? They'll most likely never achieve that high a position in my life again.

I know I'm complicated at times, but I can say it, and I also do what I can to see my part in things and possibly change them.

Without naming names (and this actually fits a select few), but if I tell you that I have certain feelings about something you said or have done and you basically tell me you're doing it to benefit you, damn my feelings, I'll get over it? As much as I've put myself out to and for you? For real?

Your season must be coming to a close. When your actions after that verify your selfishness in the whole situation? That shows me just how deep your loyalty to self runs. Well don't wonder why I don't have much to say anymore.

A wise man and a wise woman both said to me not too long ago that when someone's loyalty is to self so deeply, they have no boundaries. They do whatever they need to benefit themselves and to please themselves. They may appear to have loyalty to others in the beginning, but eventually self reappears and it doesn't matter what or who they step over to please that self. It will be done.

*It would be reeeeeeal easy to hand the mic to Cee-Lo, but this time I'm going to hand it to Ledisi*

Pieces of Me Lyrics

Verse 1:
People just don't know what I'm about...
They haven't seen what's there behind my smile...
There's so much more of me I'm showin out...
(These are the pieces of me)

When it looks like I'm up... sometimes I'm down
I'm alone even when people all around,
but that don't change the happiness I found...
(These are the pieces of me)

So when you look at my face...
You gotta know that I'm made of everything love and pain.
(These are the pieces of me)

Like every woman I know...
I'm complicated fo sho...
But when I love I love til there's no love no mo.
(These are the pieces of me)

Verse 2:
So many colors...
(I make up the woman that you see)
A good friend and lover
(Anything you want Yes I can be)
I can run the business and make time for fantasy
(These are the pieces of me)

Now I'm gonna make mistakes from time to time...
But in the end believe that I'm gone fly.
No matter if I'm wrong or if I'm right.
(These are the pieces of me)

Repeat Chorus

Ohhhh As the pieces of me start to unfold...
Now I start to understand....
All that I am..
A woman Not afraid to be strong STRONG...

Repeat Chorus

I'm a woman... A woman.. a woman woman woman.
Yes I'm a woman a woman..
these are the pieces of me... Yeaahhhh